Saturday, August 29, 2009


Guten Morgen!

Today was my weekly weigh in. This week I have felt like I've been starving myself. Yesterday I forgot to eat lunch, and by the evening my tummy was letting me know. That's why I was disappointed by this weeks weigh in...

299 lbs...

I mean WOOOO! I'm back in the 2XXs! Buuuuuuuuuuuut...

That's a total weight loss this week of just 2lbs. I know I should be thrilled. That's a good amount of weight to lose in one week, but the last two weeks I've been so impressed with my big losses, and this week feels like a lot less, you know?

Mind you, when I type it like THIS:

15lbs lost in FOUR WEEKS!

That looks better :)

I'm off to get my first milestone prize! My new electronic scales! So that's exciting! I need to go shooooooooping! Wooo!!!

I should be more cheerful than I am. Why am I not thrilled? I reached my first milestone this morning! YAY!!! (I'm trying to be ecstatic, I really am!) I suppose that in my head I've decided to lose weight, and I don't know why my body hasn't done it all. A month's a long time! That's what my heart is saying. Then there's my head, saying stupid annoying things like "it took you 27 years to put it on, it's not going to come off overnight". I KNOWWWW!!!! I just want it to!!!

Fingers crossed that I'll snap out of this attitude. It's this attitude that's lead to my downfall on diets in the past. I don't want that to happen this time.

I'll let you know how I go. Thanks for your support :)

FS xxx

Saturday, August 22, 2009

REALLY good morning!

Dearest Fatty Followers!!!

This morning was rather wonderful. I had 8 hours of really good uninterrupted sleep, after a stressful week, and what promises to be a stressful weekend, and woke up to the joy that is my neeeeew weight!

(drumrolllllll please!) 314 lbs original weight

- 2 lbs from the first week

- 6 lbs from the second week

- 5 lbs from the third week

= 301 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm 13 lbs doooooown!!

How excited am I? VEEEEERY excited! Looks like next weekend my first prize is going to kick in, and I'll get that scale I've been dreaming about!!!

I was supposed to be flying to San Francisco this weekend, but with the current grandma-in-law situation I had to cancel. I am going to try to make it towards the end of the week. I'm scared about the plane seat factor though -- I booked first class tickets for the way there so that I had extra room, but the way back I could only get coach and was in the middle seat of a row of three. That was causing me a lot of anxiety, and I hope when I get to rebook I can get an aisle or window seat so I can wedge my butt in and throw myself against the unoccupied side. I always wonder if the person coming over to sit next to me takes a look at me and thinks "ooooh craaaaap"... I'm more than a little paranoid about that. But I really wanted to go to San Francisco, and if I can reschedule my flight I'll deal with the paranoia.

Over all though, I'm pretty excited. I've realised how dedicated I am to this diet, and I'm not doing anything to ruin it yet! Wow! That's a bit of a first to be honest!!! Once I get below 300, I'm never going back over it! So bring on the challenge of this week... 290s here I come!

Love and smooches,

FS xxx

Saturday, August 15, 2009

GOOD morning!

Wasssssup? I am clearly VERY excited this morning. I had my weigh in annnnnd

*Drum roll please*

306 lbs!!!!!!

I've dropped 6 lbs in a week!!! AWESOME!

I feel FANTASTIC! I can't believe it! I'm concerned that this weekend isn't going to be fabulous eating wise. My Grandmother-in-law (M) had a stroke yesterday and we are making the 4 hour journey down to see her, and will eat with the family wherever we go. I do not begrudge this at all (obviously) -- it's a really sad situation. Eating wise -- hmmm, I'm a comfort eater. Something tells me that next week's weight loss isn't going to be quite as significant, but I have hope. If there is one thing that M would want, it's for us all to be happy and healthy. Being a fatty doesn't fall in to either of those categories.

Sorry this is so brief, but we have to get going.

Bisous xxx

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Uh oh

This weekend was not fabulous. One week in and I did a naughty already! We had the family reunion, and Aunt-in-law made her famous cherry cheesecake... uh ohhh... boy, was it deeeelish! But I picked myself up and started again...

2lbs down! (current weight 312)

Weee! Although, frankly, I'd rather have lost a LOT more. A week in the life of a crappy dieter feels like an eternity, and feeling HUNGRY is a foreign, and as yet UNPLEASANT experience. I suppose I'll get used to it -- I suppose I have to, and HOPEFULLY that feeling will disappear as I just get used to eating less. Will it? WILL IT?! It had better... or else...

So I had an interview last week and forgot my suit. On the way down to the interview I had to buy a new suit, which I haven't had to do for a while... I did not like the numbers on the size tag! I normally buy tops and jeans with a little stretch to them... suits don't stretch. I've been kidding myself and buying tops in a 16/18 size, and jeans in my special "3 blue circle" or "4 red triangle" size, and a little weight fluctuation is okay, because they stretch with you. I am now convinced that spandex is the work of the Weight Gain Demon... You know, that little devil guy sitting on your shoulder, convincing you to have that slice of cherry cheesecake... Grrrrrr... "Just eeeeat it, your pants will still fit"... Well. That little dude has led to me having a size 24 bottom in a suit skirt, and a 22 top in the jacket. I HATE YOU, YOU DEMON!!!!!!! How do I get rid of him?!?!?!!!!

So, here I sit, in my stretchy black and white top (black is slimming, right?), and my crazy numbered jeans, typing away and feeling the burn (aka HUNGER). I'll keep at it, stick with me!!!

FS xx

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Blood work


Well, today I had my blood work done, and I'm not doing too badly for a big lady! My HDL is slightly low, but my normal cholesterol and glucose levels were optimal! Plus my blood pressure was awesome! 118/72! Wooo!

And, with it being only day three of the diet, I can officially say that I'm feeling pretty good! Yesterday was a HORRIBLE headache day -- getting rid of all that sugar is HARD!!!!! But then no one said it was going to be easy!!

I do need to step up the exercise though, that's not really happening yet, and we allll know that exercise PLUS diet is the key to weightloss!

See ya xx

P.S. On Sunday I weighed in at 314. Highest I've ever weighed... I have a plane seat to squeeze in to by the end of August, and I'm GOING TO GET BELOW 300 FOR IT!!!!!! (Or not, but I'm going to try that's for sure!!!)

Monday, August 3, 2009

Reward Scheme!


299lbs: Electronic scale
285lbs: Perfume
270lbs: Mani/Pedi
250lbs: Charm
230lbs: Necklace
210lbs: Theme park trip
190lbs: Clothing shopping spree

Day 2...


So, I've been on the diet for one full day. My head hurts A LOT!!!! I think it's clear that my usual love of sugary snacks is going to cause a problem -- I've cut out artificial sugar all together, so my body is VERY confused!.

I went to a wedding on Saturday night (one of the reasons behind starting my diet on Sunday) and ate SIX COURSES!! They were all delicious. It was also a great way to kick off my diet, because I woke up on Sunday feeling full (still), and the thought of more food made me want to puke. But, there is NO BAD FOOD in my house AT ALL. Ergo, should I feel the urge to cheat on my diet, I would have to go out to the shops. That's a lot of effort for snack food. Here's hoping the concept works!

The plan is not to tell anyone that I'm dieting. I'm hoping when I next see my parents (at Christmas) they will be amazed at my weight loss, and be super impressed. So really there are only three people who know. Except for anyone else reading this blog!

I took photos yesterday, so when the weight starts falling, I'll post some anonymous photos!

Right, I'm off to experience some hunger!

Toodles xx