Friday, April 30, 2010

It's been ten days...

...since my last blog.

I haven't been particularly good, but then I haven't been particularly bad. I've eaten mostly at home, but haven't paid much attention to what food I'm putting in my mouth.

Until my parents have gone home, I'm remaining in "non-diet" mode. I don't know why, but I HATE people knowing I'm dieting. I feel like they judge me. But then, I am fairly sure people judge me for eating.

I know I judge other fat people for eating...


So I'm waiting. I shouldn't. I know I shouldn't. But it's convenient to wait. My 'rents are still here and I have a couple of weeks of exams ahead... I'll start dieting soon, I promise.

Is there a free rent-a-Jillian? You know, Jillian Michaels from Biggest Loser. I need someone to come and kick my rear-end in to gear. She wouldn't take my bullcrap. She'd make me exercise...

Uh oh... tornado warning... off to the basement. Will update you when I get out of there...

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


I may have inadvertently baked a rather giant and incredibly delicious chocolate cake...

Uh oh...

Monday, April 19, 2010

Oh sweet, sweet swear words.

I feel very restrained right now. I haven't uttered a swear word for at least 30 seconds! Brilliant! I'm on a roll.

I'm thinking swear words though, and lots of them...

My parents are here, visiting from the motherland. I've been having a fantastic time. We've been hiking, home-improvementing, exploring, etc. We've been having home-cooked food, and the odd treat. It's been lovely!

Until this morning.

When I weighed myself.

!#$&*(^*&#* %^((($&%^(^&* *&&*&#^^#@^ ^!((@ !*&^&^*%()^&^&^&%*%$$$

Really? Whose frickin' joke was THAT number on the scale? What is this? Candid Camera? Where are you, you giant kidding beasts of hilarity that call yourselves cameramen?



So this is really it?

I actually weigh 320 lbs?

Well flip. Or some other much stronger swear word.

I'm thinking weight watchers. I'm thinking structure. I'm thinking I know I gained weight on WW before, but maybe it's "3rd time's the charm"...

I'm fat.

Love, me xx