Morning everyone!
I woke up pretty late this morning, and am not feeling too hot. Full of a cold which sucks. It's making me very thoughtful about what to have for breakfast. Porridge or shredded wheat? Hmmm...
This afternoon we are off to a friend's house to watch the football and we have to take a dish to share. I normally handmake something, but that's DANGEROUS! I make super delicious triple fudge chocolate cake, and cherry bakewells, and all sorts of naughty goodies. Today I'm thinking about taking some of the naughty food that already exists in my house. Novel idea. Normally I'd just eat it by myself over the space of a couple of days. That can't be good! It feels so odd to take premade stuff with me, but I think that finding my "discomfort zone" and learning how to feel okay in it is a part of this journey.
I'm also thinking about how to attack exercise. I have a friend who would like to exercise with me at a gym. That would be awesome! My only fear is, of course, what people will think when they see a heffalump sweating over a machine... it's going to be ugly! I'd like to find a gym that is quite quiet, and not too expensive. I don't know how realistic that is, but I'll give it a shot! I'll let you know how I go!
I think I've opted for shredded wheat... x
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
Oh expletives...
Well, clearly I have failed. It is now January 8th, 2010. I have not dieted since my last blog, back in September...
Nothing like a new year to give you a new opportunity to try again, right?!
So here I am! Standing tall at a whopping 307.6... Booooo! At least it's still several pounds from where I started!!! So, let's put it in big pretty letters and make me feel better about myself!!! Haha! It's the little things!!!!
6.4 lbs down!!!!!
I'm going to ignore the fact that this is actually weight gained since my last blog, because I should still be proud of the fact that I'm not as big as I was. And you know, for people our size, it's important to celebrate every step in the right direction. I need to remember that. I know that on this weight loss journey there will be weeks when I work hard yet lose nothing. There will be weeks when I feel that I haven't done as much as I could and yet I'll still lose. There will be weeks when I don't want to diet any more. At those times I need to come back to this blog and celebrate.
Why do I keep kidding myself? Why do I keep thinking it's going to be an easy ride? IT'S NOT! But I'm going to do it! Keep following me, friends! We can do this!
Me xx
Nothing like a new year to give you a new opportunity to try again, right?!
So here I am! Standing tall at a whopping 307.6... Booooo! At least it's still several pounds from where I started!!! So, let's put it in big pretty letters and make me feel better about myself!!! Haha! It's the little things!!!!
6.4 lbs down!!!!!
I'm going to ignore the fact that this is actually weight gained since my last blog, because I should still be proud of the fact that I'm not as big as I was. And you know, for people our size, it's important to celebrate every step in the right direction. I need to remember that. I know that on this weight loss journey there will be weeks when I work hard yet lose nothing. There will be weeks when I feel that I haven't done as much as I could and yet I'll still lose. There will be weeks when I don't want to diet any more. At those times I need to come back to this blog and celebrate.
Why do I keep kidding myself? Why do I keep thinking it's going to be an easy ride? IT'S NOT! But I'm going to do it! Keep following me, friends! We can do this!
Me xx
Saturday, September 5, 2009
It's not all bad news after all!
I thought this week would be a disasterous weigh in, due to my naughtiness here and there, and the palava of last week! Buuuuut...
298.4...
That's not bad you know! I lost almost a pound!! It's still a bit disappointing, but it's actually rather inspiring!
This entry is a bit short I'm afraid but we are trecking down to see my grandmother-in-law in the hospital. I'll update more in the week!
Keep the faith!
FS xx
298.4...
That's not bad you know! I lost almost a pound!! It's still a bit disappointing, but it's actually rather inspiring!
This entry is a bit short I'm afraid but we are trecking down to see my grandmother-in-law in the hospital. I'll update more in the week!
Keep the faith!
FS xx
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Struggling...
This weekend we hosted a barbeque. I knew I wasn't going to be able to stick to my diet, so on Sunday I just relaxed and ate whatever took my fancy, without trying to analyze the nutritional content. It was luuuuuuush. But then yesterday there were leftovers, and I thought "oooh, it would be such a shame to just throw all that food away", so I ate it. This morning, I have yet to eat breakfast. It's 10am, and I'm starving. BUT I'm trying to figure out... am I going to eat diet friendly food, or something naughty? I don't think I have anything naughty left -- I asked my husband to throw away all the yummy bits that were left over last night. He did. THANK GOODNESS. Why can't I trust myself with delicious fooooods?
On the plus side, I have realised that writing this blogs does keep me accountable. Just sitting here typing has made me think of all the reasons why I need to stick at it. I need to do this. I'm 27 years old, and I really just want to be healthy, to walk the stairs at school and not feel breathless by the top, to wear the cute clothes that the models are wearing in the shop windows.
Okay. Off to make something healthy for breakfast! Yay! Thanks for setting me on the straight and narrow! I hope I can just keep at it...
Mwwwwaaaah xxx
On the plus side, I have realised that writing this blogs does keep me accountable. Just sitting here typing has made me think of all the reasons why I need to stick at it. I need to do this. I'm 27 years old, and I really just want to be healthy, to walk the stairs at school and not feel breathless by the top, to wear the cute clothes that the models are wearing in the shop windows.
Okay. Off to make something healthy for breakfast! Yay! Thanks for setting me on the straight and narrow! I hope I can just keep at it...
Mwwwwaaaah xxx
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Alright...
Guten Morgen!
Today was my weekly weigh in. This week I have felt like I've been starving myself. Yesterday I forgot to eat lunch, and by the evening my tummy was letting me know. That's why I was disappointed by this weeks weigh in...
299 lbs...
I mean WOOOO! I'm back in the 2XXs! Buuuuuuuuuuuut...
That's a total weight loss this week of just 2lbs. I know I should be thrilled. That's a good amount of weight to lose in one week, but the last two weeks I've been so impressed with my big losses, and this week feels like a lot less, you know?
Mind you, when I type it like THIS:
15lbs lost in FOUR WEEKS!
That looks better :)
I'm off to get my first milestone prize! My new electronic scales! So that's exciting! I need to go shooooooooping! Wooo!!!
I should be more cheerful than I am. Why am I not thrilled? I reached my first milestone this morning! YAY!!! (I'm trying to be ecstatic, I really am!) I suppose that in my head I've decided to lose weight, and I don't know why my body hasn't done it all. A month's a long time! That's what my heart is saying. Then there's my head, saying stupid annoying things like "it took you 27 years to put it on, it's not going to come off overnight". I KNOWWWW!!!! I just want it to!!!
Fingers crossed that I'll snap out of this attitude. It's this attitude that's lead to my downfall on diets in the past. I don't want that to happen this time.
I'll let you know how I go. Thanks for your support :)
FS xxx
Today was my weekly weigh in. This week I have felt like I've been starving myself. Yesterday I forgot to eat lunch, and by the evening my tummy was letting me know. That's why I was disappointed by this weeks weigh in...
299 lbs...
I mean WOOOO! I'm back in the 2XXs! Buuuuuuuuuuuut...
That's a total weight loss this week of just 2lbs. I know I should be thrilled. That's a good amount of weight to lose in one week, but the last two weeks I've been so impressed with my big losses, and this week feels like a lot less, you know?
Mind you, when I type it like THIS:
15lbs lost in FOUR WEEKS!
That looks better :)
I'm off to get my first milestone prize! My new electronic scales! So that's exciting! I need to go shooooooooping! Wooo!!!
I should be more cheerful than I am. Why am I not thrilled? I reached my first milestone this morning! YAY!!! (I'm trying to be ecstatic, I really am!) I suppose that in my head I've decided to lose weight, and I don't know why my body hasn't done it all. A month's a long time! That's what my heart is saying. Then there's my head, saying stupid annoying things like "it took you 27 years to put it on, it's not going to come off overnight". I KNOWWWW!!!! I just want it to!!!
Fingers crossed that I'll snap out of this attitude. It's this attitude that's lead to my downfall on diets in the past. I don't want that to happen this time.
I'll let you know how I go. Thanks for your support :)
FS xxx
Saturday, August 22, 2009
REALLY good morning!
Dearest Fatty Followers!!!
This morning was rather wonderful. I had 8 hours of really good uninterrupted sleep, after a stressful week, and what promises to be a stressful weekend, and woke up to the joy that is my neeeeew weight!
(drumrolllllll please!) 314 lbs original weight
- 2 lbs from the first week
- 6 lbs from the second week
- 5 lbs from the third week
= 301 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm 13 lbs doooooown!!
How excited am I? VEEEEERY excited! Looks like next weekend my first prize is going to kick in, and I'll get that scale I've been dreaming about!!!
I was supposed to be flying to San Francisco this weekend, but with the current grandma-in-law situation I had to cancel. I am going to try to make it towards the end of the week. I'm scared about the plane seat factor though -- I booked first class tickets for the way there so that I had extra room, but the way back I could only get coach and was in the middle seat of a row of three. That was causing me a lot of anxiety, and I hope when I get to rebook I can get an aisle or window seat so I can wedge my butt in and throw myself against the unoccupied side. I always wonder if the person coming over to sit next to me takes a look at me and thinks "ooooh craaaaap"... I'm more than a little paranoid about that. But I really wanted to go to San Francisco, and if I can reschedule my flight I'll deal with the paranoia.
Over all though, I'm pretty excited. I've realised how dedicated I am to this diet, and I'm not doing anything to ruin it yet! Wow! That's a bit of a first to be honest!!! Once I get below 300, I'm never going back over it! So bring on the challenge of this week... 290s here I come!
Love and smooches,
FS xxx
This morning was rather wonderful. I had 8 hours of really good uninterrupted sleep, after a stressful week, and what promises to be a stressful weekend, and woke up to the joy that is my neeeeew weight!
(drumrolllllll please!) 314 lbs original weight
- 2 lbs from the first week
- 6 lbs from the second week
- 5 lbs from the third week
= 301 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm 13 lbs doooooown!!
How excited am I? VEEEEERY excited! Looks like next weekend my first prize is going to kick in, and I'll get that scale I've been dreaming about!!!
I was supposed to be flying to San Francisco this weekend, but with the current grandma-in-law situation I had to cancel. I am going to try to make it towards the end of the week. I'm scared about the plane seat factor though -- I booked first class tickets for the way there so that I had extra room, but the way back I could only get coach and was in the middle seat of a row of three. That was causing me a lot of anxiety, and I hope when I get to rebook I can get an aisle or window seat so I can wedge my butt in and throw myself against the unoccupied side. I always wonder if the person coming over to sit next to me takes a look at me and thinks "ooooh craaaaap"... I'm more than a little paranoid about that. But I really wanted to go to San Francisco, and if I can reschedule my flight I'll deal with the paranoia.
Over all though, I'm pretty excited. I've realised how dedicated I am to this diet, and I'm not doing anything to ruin it yet! Wow! That's a bit of a first to be honest!!! Once I get below 300, I'm never going back over it! So bring on the challenge of this week... 290s here I come!
Love and smooches,
FS xxx
Saturday, August 15, 2009
GOOD morning!
Wasssssup? I am clearly VERY excited this morning. I had my weigh in annnnnd
*Drum roll please*
306 lbs!!!!!!
I've dropped 6 lbs in a week!!! AWESOME!
I feel FANTASTIC! I can't believe it! I'm concerned that this weekend isn't going to be fabulous eating wise. My Grandmother-in-law (M) had a stroke yesterday and we are making the 4 hour journey down to see her, and will eat with the family wherever we go. I do not begrudge this at all (obviously) -- it's a really sad situation. Eating wise -- hmmm, I'm a comfort eater. Something tells me that next week's weight loss isn't going to be quite as significant, but I have hope. If there is one thing that M would want, it's for us all to be happy and healthy. Being a fatty doesn't fall in to either of those categories.
Sorry this is so brief, but we have to get going.
Bisous xxx
*Drum roll please*
306 lbs!!!!!!
I've dropped 6 lbs in a week!!! AWESOME!
I feel FANTASTIC! I can't believe it! I'm concerned that this weekend isn't going to be fabulous eating wise. My Grandmother-in-law (M) had a stroke yesterday and we are making the 4 hour journey down to see her, and will eat with the family wherever we go. I do not begrudge this at all (obviously) -- it's a really sad situation. Eating wise -- hmmm, I'm a comfort eater. Something tells me that next week's weight loss isn't going to be quite as significant, but I have hope. If there is one thing that M would want, it's for us all to be happy and healthy. Being a fatty doesn't fall in to either of those categories.
Sorry this is so brief, but we have to get going.
Bisous xxx
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